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My latest adventure is one of love. And, boy, is it a wild ride!

I generally prefer to communicate in writing (shocker), so I took a risk yesterday, and wrote him a letter, to express my thoughts and feelings on current circumstances between us. No real big kickers, just a lot of love, and some hypotheses and perspectives. I left it out for him, like my beating heart, on the table, figuring I’d get some response – even though I specifically stated within it, that none was needed – later that evening. It is now the following morning, and I’ve rarely felt so exposed.

I guess I failed to adequately consider the repercussions of what such a delay would do to me. Clarity is a big thing in my world, and it’s just the not knowing that’s really taking a toll on me. I trust that I could handle whatever his response might be, but without knowing how he took it, I don’t know how to move forward. I feel like I just put on a soul-soaked performance, and the audience is discussing how they want to react, while I just stand there on the stage, holding that final pose, wobbling, heart knocking, mind racing, worries multiplying. It’s awful to feel so insecure.

I even stated in the letter that I worry I’m too much, or not enough – too intense, not zen enough. I also stated that in my understanding of some heartache he is dealing with personally, I would be here for him, even if space is the only thing he wants from me. So, I suppose he is just graciously taking me up on that. I can’t help but fear that my concerns of overwhelming him are accurate, though.

UGGGH! If that’s true, I will persevere. I have learned so much from this experience already, especially about self-acceptance. So, if he doesn’t like the way I am, than I’m developing the confidence that someone else I like, will. Again, I could deal with whatever I have to deal with – I just don’t know what I’m dealing with!!

I wanted to vent this, and perhaps bring solace to anyone else who might be going through something similar – you’re not alone. What I would tell us both: This, too, shall pass. Take heart, dear one, and find gratitude for the blessings in your life. It will look different in the morning.

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Posted by on 10/08/2015 in Action


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Shameless promotion


Hey-o :D

Man, I am really digging this coaching stuff. So much so, that I would dig it even more if I had more people to coach! And that is why I am using this here blog of mine, to do a little shameless promotion, in an effort to help get the word out, and potentially make some new connections. Let me tell you a little bit about what I do.

I help folks achieve better balance and brighter bliss; I aid people in the attainment of their goals; and I encourage individuals to “embrace life with a holistically divine perspective”. Like a personal gardening tool, I work with clients to upgrade their skills, master their psychology, strategize new actions, clarify their direction, and optimize their environment. “Spade” and grow :)

Just for fun, I created this “How balanced are you?” quiz – take it, and see where you land. Feel free to share the experience, too!

Wishing you a blissful moment :)


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Posted by on 06/13/2015 in Action


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My treatise


A few years ago, I decided to compile all the bits of wisdom I had accumulated over the course of my personal development. This year, I committed to finishing it, and I succeeded.

For whatever reasons, a local publisher deemed that it was not sufficiently marketable for publication. I suspect it might have at least something to do with my lack of standardized credibility. Nevertheless, I have this “book”, or treatise, as I’m now inclined to call it, and I still want to do what I’ve always wanted to do with it, which is to share it with the world. So, I’ve gone ahead and made it available to anyone with a computer and an internet connection.

I present to you: The Omni Approach.

It is a pdf, and just under 50 pages. Enjoy it at your discretion and/or leisure, and feel free to disseminate :)

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Posted by on 05/29/2015 in Action


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What’s the word…?


A friend recently shared a fabulous find, The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, in which creator, John Koenig, has invented new words for humanity to utilize, and wherein “each original definition aims to fill a hole in the language – to give a name to emotions we all might experience, but don’t yet have a word for.”

I was particularly struck by the “onism” concept, as I suffer from it myself, from time to time. That image above came from an article highlighting the project, and then I took a look at the source site, and found this beautiful video to accompany the word. The explorer in me wept at its conclusion.

The whole video series really looks quite remarkable. What an awesome adventure in the language of emotion and the human experience :)

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Posted by on 05/11/2015 in Musings


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Up and up


Surprise! I actually finished the manuscript of my book yesterday, and submitted it to a local publisher! I’m pretty excited :) Aaand, I’ve completed the core of the coaching course, and started working with practice clients – one yesterday, and one the day before. I just have a couple more bonus seasons in the course, and I’ll be totally done the day after tomorrow.

I’ve gone ahead and put up a website for both the book, and the coaching, as well as a Twitter. The title I’ve chosen is “The Omni Approach”.

Here’s the site.

I am so stoked about this path – I think I’ve found one beautiful version of my bliss :)

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Posted by on 04/21/2015 in Action


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New year, new adventures

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A beautiful mosaic here in Austin over on the east side

Happy 2015!

In yet another direction change, I have made the choice to try on a whole new career – Life Coach :D I actually hired one recently to help me get unstuck, and then I realized that doing what she does, fits remarkably well with who I am and what I value. Serendipitously, she even offers her own course in coaching :) My first priority, though, is to recover an income, as the dog training bit hasn’t really come together so well. Surprisingly, I have applied for a part time position at my credit union. The hours suit me, and I think it will be pleasant enough for the six months to a year that my education will take.

My New Year’s Resolution this year was a bit of a break from the past few years, where I had set intentions of the metaphysical persuasion. This year though, I have a rather concrete goal. A few years ago, I started piecing together a self-help book, comprised of my notes and learnings in personal growth and spiritual development. I aim to finish it in 2015 :) When pondering the nature of my future coaching practice, I realized that it will blend seamlessly with this book! I’ve gone ahead and titled them both the same, and I hope to launch them simultaneously :D (No spoilers yet; gotta keep those cards close.)

I’m really excited about my new journey. It’s so encouraging to finally have some clarity for a future that looks fulfilling. Still holding that hostel in my sights, but the path to it is looking much brighter :)

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Posted by on 01/17/2015 in Plans


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Grateful for my home

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Cin on the road

I went away for Thanksgiving, to Colorado, to share the holiday with my mom and sister, and her extended family. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, but that, of course, applies only to things of which the heart is already fond. The other day, I discovered just how fond I am of my new home. While I thoroughly enjoyed my visit, I was so thrilled to cross back into Texas. I have not felt such a sense of home and happiness in a very long time. It feels good :)

I brought my dog, so we drove. It was a lot of driving. I love it when she rests her head on the back seat and looks out the rear window :)

I hope everyone had a joyous Thanksgiving, and has much to be thankful for :)

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Posted by on 11/30/2014 in Musings


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